So it's been a day now since Michelle and I have broken up. It's been pretty hard.... After having put all of my heart and effort into it. But yet we both decided it was the right thing (giving her the credit for being brave and suggesting it). Now it's time for me to really get to know what I want, what I need to do and what are my goals and expectations in life. This has been an awesome month and a half... but yet a real eye opener on my part. Where I thought I was ready... I wasn't completely honest with myself. Where I thought I knew what I wanted... I was as fluid as water.
I was rushing to find myself... which really doesn't work... for fear of losing her. Now it's done even though I have done so. Which goes to show that you should always be ready before you make a decision instead of deciding that you'll try to do it along the way. Better prepared than wishy-washy... Which unfortunately I was and still am a little bit. But there is always room for improvement. I can take what I learned from this relationship and become a better man - putting my trust, and priority, in my Father and His will rather than what I want or what another may want. I have to make my decisions and my goals... no one else can do it for me.
Which is what I am learning now. So here I go!
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