So I got a free month trial of netflix - which can only spell disaster and doom, right? Perhaps but I'm thinking about cancelling it - me and netflix could make a very bad couple.
With this new resource - I decided to catch up on Kyle XY, a show I have decidedly adored in High School but never got around to finishing the series. For those of you that haven't seen it, Kyle's a lost, wayward teenager and literally knows nothing (like he was born straight from the womb). The difference is that he has a much more developed brain and is hyper-active in learning and is very, very, very smart. But he falls in love with the cute girl next door - Amanda. He is drawn to her through her precious talent of playing the piano. Long story short, she breaks up with her current boyfriend for him being a cheater and Kyle ends up dating her. In my opinion, they are the perfect couple - sweet, caring, loving, charitable, smart, reasonable, responsible, etc. They are just an awesome couple.
Why am I sharing this? I feel like I'm missing my Amanda - my Carmody. And I'm not getting her back. But like Kyle, even when Amanda breaks up with him, he never loses his feelings for her. I feel like that's what's going to happen to me with Carmody. It's been a year and a couple months since she passed away. And still the thought of me being with another woman doesn't seem right. Doesn't seem feasible. But I guess it's not my time yet. But I really want my Amanda back. Someone who loves me and trusts me and gives me the support that I need. All this = Catch 22.
Anyways, my minor rant.
